After months of heartaches and uncertainties, I have finally accepted that maybe... it really IS time to move on....

I had great memories of you dear and I will never ever forget you. You have been there for me through thick and thin andI will be forever grateful of the fact that without you, life would have been so much harder. I don't even think I would have stayed sane if it weren't for you. Alas, I need to let go and start a new. I find myself standing in another crossroad of my life and I think it is time to leave this old road and continue my journey in a new one.

You will be forever in my heart, my dear old blogspot. 

To my "readers" (hahaha, as if), my new blog is here. 

KITAKITS!!!! (^________________^)

I know I have nothing to be sad about. I have a wonderful family, a great set of friends and the love of my life. I have more than enough for my daily needs and I live in a beautiful and peaceful place. There's really nothing to be sad about.

I don'y know why I still am though.

I don't know what it is. But something is missing. I still feel like I'm living a pointless life. I still have those moments when I think that everything around me is so... fake. I still have days when everything looks so gray and all I wanna do is just close my eyes to shut myself away from this dull world. I still feel so lost. I want to curl up in one corner, take a step back and look at my life passing by aimlessly going to nowhere. I still feel so weak.

And I still feel so sad.

I want to be happy. 

I always end my 'lazy-era' by making herculean tasks I can't do. And it always does the trick (even though almost always none of them gets done by the end of the year. *snicker*)

So... Lo and Behold! To mark my alive-again status in the blog world (as if anybody knew I was dead for a while and before that, alive and further before that, was dead... gyah...), I now give you me NEW YEAR's resolution you for the year 2009! weetiwew!

Bambam's 2009 New Year Resolution:

1. Save Money!!!

World economy went six feet under during 2008 and although, governments from all over the world are encouraging people to increase spending to keep the markets afloat, I'm saying 'No thank you' to all of that. I simply won't have enough money by the end of the year if I will have that kind of attitude. So this 2009, people, expect a thrifty Bambam!!! Yes, that includes you, Bambam! Be thrift be thrifty... please!!!

2. Be a Knowledge Vacuum

I have my internet for almost a year now but just realized that I was wasting it all away on streaming videos that don't really add more to myself. Ok, I enjoyed some movies here and there but come on... there's a plethora of knowledge out there that I have complete access to but didn't even explore!!! That's gonna change now. From now on, I would be a knowledge vacuum, learning random things as much as I can. I won't be enjoying 24/7 internet access for a majority of this year anyway, so I gotta make use of it this time around! Can wikipedia be a homepage??

3. Slim Down, Really slim down

This has been a resolution ever since I was in high school I think. But I'm not taking this off unless I can achieve this. And I can feel it, 2009 will be the year that this goal will come true! iu can feel it. I MUST FEEL IT!!!! I'm just actually sick and tired of not being able to move accordingly because of my excess baggages. It's sickening. I. want. to. be. fit. NOW NA.

4. Be LESS Lazy

This will be the hardest one. And it's probably the trait I need the most this year. What with my board exams coming this year, I just can not afford to slack off any longer. Enough is enough! I must stop bumming around. I wish I had an ass-kicker employed just to soley kick my ass whenever I'm showing laziness syndrome anytime of the day. But I can't afford one so I'll stick to good ol self-motivation. *sigh*

Those my friends, are my top 4 new year's resolution. My actual list actually goes up to 47 but those three sums em all up nicely. Hihi. Good luck to me!

Happy New Year Everyone!!!! It's good to be back! (^_______^)

*photo taken from devaintart

Yes. I am supposed to do my Finance Paper right now (and I really need to because I'm effing failing the subject and this is the only thing left that's probably going to save me.)

Yes. I really need to do my Finance Paper because tomorrow's the deadline and I haven't written a single word and I'm suppose to pass 15 - 20 pages of analyzing crap I don't even have the slightest idea of right now.

Yes. I REALLY AM going to make my paper now...

BUT BEFORE THAT. I want to share with you guys some commercials that made me bawl like the big baby that I am.

Commercial #1: Thai Life Insurance "Daddy"



This commercial will make you cry, so much that you would SOO want to buy Thai Insurance even though, well, you're not from Thailand and all. Or at least that's what the makers want a whole lot of people to think.

Commercial #2: Cancer Commercial (girl with brother)



This commercial will probably just generate mere 'AWWWW's from a lot of people but it made me cry till I almost had an asthma attack. What can I say, I'm a sucker for siblings-doing-good-stuffs-for-eachother thingies. And good deeds make me cry more than sad events. I don't really know why...

Commercial #3: 9/11 Budweiser Tribute



And the commercial that made me cry the most doesn't even have a single human in it. Oh and it's from a beer company. It's amazing how those Budweiser Clydsedale horses can do to my animal-loving heart. hehe. But yeah, nothing really fancy in here...and that's probably what got me. The sheer simplicity of the act...*sniff*

So, there you go, nothing but a good cry to start the day! I'm off to my paper now! (^_^)

So I was bumming around when I should have been studying my ass off and came across Manang Ta's Timtam Slam entry. Of course, I got intrigued and set myself off on a brief TimTam Slam research. After watching several youtube videos on the matter, I knew I just HAD to try to do one too.

And so I did!

This is how you do it:


1. Get your own timtam!


2. Bite off the opposite ends of your timtam.


3. Dip one end of your timtam into your preferred HOT beverage (ours was Coffee), and suck in using the biscuit as a straw.


4. When the beverage reaches your mouth, quickly swallow the whole timtam and ENJOY!!!

The chocolate biscuit is supposed to have this explosion effect on your mouth but in our case, well, I dunno... that didn't exactly happen. It could have been the wrong choice of timtam (I think we got a wafer one when we're supposed to get the original. Ijit! Ijit!) or maybe the timtam we got was close to its expiration date (Hopefully not...). Nevertheless, TimTam Slamin' is still worth a try!!! Ima buy myself the original one and try it again later!!! Weee!!!! ^_^

Here's my Timtam Slam Moment:



Mamit!!!!

A lot could happen in a month. You could turn into a hero, make your first million or even wipe out an entire race (and go to hell, you evil person) for such a short length of time. In 30 days, anything could happen to you. And that anything could either make or break you. Or change your life forever. Your choice on what your reaction would be, actually. The point is ANYTHING, yes even the impossible or what people may deem as utterly impossible, could happen to anybody in this whole wide world!

In my case, I fell in love.

(Beware. The following paragraphs may contain extreme corniness. If you're not in to such things, then please save yourself and DO NOT continue on reading. If you gag or puke before finishing this entry, I've got one thing to say to you, baby: Don't say I didn't warn you!!!)

Yep, you heard me right. I fell in love.

The funny thing is, I've always thought that such a phenomenon (hah!) could never happen to someone like me. I've always had this very vivid idea of what falling in love SHOULD be and have long concluded that in this time, in this world, that love-thingy-with-a-guy that most people have would probably never fit my character. I've always looked at my life as a book and have long resigned myself to that supporting character to the 'major characters' dominating my entire existence. In layman's term, I saw myself as 'the bestfriend of *NAME*', the girl everyone turns to to air out all their trials and tribulations in life and in love - always the bridesmaid, never the bride.

Plus, I have very unrealistic ideals on love and have set out (impossible) specific premises on how everything should happen. Here's a glimpse:
*first kiss should be under the rain
*first date should be under a big tree on top of a hill in the middle of a grassy meadow
*the guy must have BOTH alpha and beta male characteristics (eg. is a math whiz black-belter with a knack for classical piano music)

In short, I am too idealistic. It's funny though that all my life I've set up this grand love story of mine, planning them minute by minute in exquisite details, convincing myself that this is what should and MUST happen or if not then maybe *close* to it but in the end...none of those 'special'
circumstances or 'perfect' love premises actually really matters. In the end, you realize that you don't need all those fancy stuff to make that love magic happen.

When you fall in love, everything just comes into place. So what if your first conversation was made when you both were drunk? So what if everything goes wrong on your first date? So what if the guy is the complete opposite of your dream guy? Or if you both have absolutely nothing in common? Or if your first kiss was a stolen one in dark musky movie house with your mouth full of popcorn? Or if there really was no formal 'courting' period and you both aren't really sure exactly when you guys got hitched? When you fall in love, all those superficial things doesn't really matter anymore... magic simply just happens.

I used to be scared of falling in love because of many things (see my previous entry The Waiting Room) but now that I'm in this state, I don't really care much of those anymore. I'm not scared of getting hurt because of infidelity or even for the very real reason that he will leave in a month and our individual paths in life are just sooo far off we ourselves don't know how we could make those two meet. I honestly didn't give much thought about all those stuffs in the future. When you love somebody, you just know that no matter how hard things will turn out, it will just work out someday somehow for you both. Then you realize that all you really got to do is cherish every second you have with that person and live each day as though it was going to be your last together.

I may be eating my words in the near future but right here right now, everything just feels so...right. Who knew that in 30 days, one person could feel such happiness and contentment as what I'm feeling right now?

If that could happen in a month, just imagine all the great things in store for us for the rest of our lives.

HOW UBER COOL IS THAT, HUH????

Reality Bits:

July 26, 2008 (first conversation)

B (drunk): ?
P (drunk): Hello!

the rest is history....

Ok so I was checking out my mail when I stumbled upon this...



That's my brother (the one singing first) and his band mate Chris (the one with the geetar). Wala lang. hehe. As usual, I just miss that kid to bits. *sigh*