One Month Ago

A lot could happen in a month. You could turn into a hero, make your first million or even wipe out an entire race (and go to hell, you evil person) for such a short length of time. In 30 days, anything could happen to you. And that anything could either make or break you. Or change your life forever. Your choice on what your reaction would be, actually. The point is ANYTHING, yes even the impossible or what people may deem as utterly impossible, could happen to anybody in this whole wide world!

In my case, I fell in love.

(Beware. The following paragraphs may contain extreme corniness. If you're not in to such things, then please save yourself and DO NOT continue on reading. If you gag or puke before finishing this entry, I've got one thing to say to you, baby: Don't say I didn't warn you!!!)

Yep, you heard me right. I fell in love.

The funny thing is, I've always thought that such a phenomenon (hah!) could never happen to someone like me. I've always had this very vivid idea of what falling in love SHOULD be and have long concluded that in this time, in this world, that love-thingy-with-a-guy that most people have would probably never fit my character. I've always looked at my life as a book and have long resigned myself to that supporting character to the 'major characters' dominating my entire existence. In layman's term, I saw myself as 'the bestfriend of *NAME*', the girl everyone turns to to air out all their trials and tribulations in life and in love - always the bridesmaid, never the bride.

Plus, I have very unrealistic ideals on love and have set out (impossible) specific premises on how everything should happen. Here's a glimpse:
*first kiss should be under the rain
*first date should be under a big tree on top of a hill in the middle of a grassy meadow
*the guy must have BOTH alpha and beta male characteristics (eg. is a math whiz black-belter with a knack for classical piano music)

In short, I am too idealistic. It's funny though that all my life I've set up this grand love story of mine, planning them minute by minute in exquisite details, convincing myself that this is what should and MUST happen or if not then maybe *close* to it but in the end...none of those 'special'
circumstances or 'perfect' love premises actually really matters. In the end, you realize that you don't need all those fancy stuff to make that love magic happen.

When you fall in love, everything just comes into place. So what if your first conversation was made when you both were drunk? So what if everything goes wrong on your first date? So what if the guy is the complete opposite of your dream guy? Or if you both have absolutely nothing in common? Or if your first kiss was a stolen one in dark musky movie house with your mouth full of popcorn? Or if there really was no formal 'courting' period and you both aren't really sure exactly when you guys got hitched? When you fall in love, all those superficial things doesn't really matter anymore... magic simply just happens.

I used to be scared of falling in love because of many things (see my previous entry The Waiting Room) but now that I'm in this state, I don't really care much of those anymore. I'm not scared of getting hurt because of infidelity or even for the very real reason that he will leave in a month and our individual paths in life are just sooo far off we ourselves don't know how we could make those two meet. I honestly didn't give much thought about all those stuffs in the future. When you love somebody, you just know that no matter how hard things will turn out, it will just work out someday somehow for you both. Then you realize that all you really got to do is cherish every second you have with that person and live each day as though it was going to be your last together.

I may be eating my words in the near future but right here right now, everything just feels so...right. Who knew that in 30 days, one person could feel such happiness and contentment as what I'm feeling right now?

If that could happen in a month, just imagine all the great things in store for us for the rest of our lives.

HOW UBER COOL IS THAT, HUH????

Reality Bits:

July 26, 2008 (first conversation)

B (drunk): ?
P (drunk): Hello!

the rest is history....